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| anemone
(n) - A song written by Hyde. The name came from a flower that is available
in PASTEL colours, and are relatively hardy. Symbol: impossible love. Also
a flower of Seraphim (angel) Camael, who is the planetary angel of Mars,
whose colour is RED and whose bird is SPARROW |
a)
PASTEL colours are associated with tetsu-- so is the colour RED.
b)
the attributes of Camael are, among which, determination and passion--
both of which is required of tetsu to form the band.
c)
SPARROW- a bird associated with tetsu due to its small and fragile frame
(trust me, tetsu's really skinny!)
It
represents "impossible love"... After the release of Clicked Singles Best
13, which this song was housed on, they immediately went solo. This shows
that after Clicked, Hyde and Tetsu might have a fall-out. (since Hyde suggested
going solo) |
| a
drop of colour (n) - A solo song by Hyde. |
| the
lyrics go, "a drop of colour saves me from the fate of facing everyday/
a single bloom"... Colours are associated with tetsu, due to the fact that
a) sakura's not colourful at all! b) tetsu is colourful! Therefore, the
premises point to tetsu being the "bloom" who saves him from yesterday,
which means "the past"...
And
the fact that Tetsu never compares the "you" in his songs to flower shows
that Hyde is on top, and Tetsu is at the bottom! |
| Asuka
(n) - A Female character from Neon Genesis Evangelion, whom Tetchan likes. |
| Asuka
is cute, but her character sucks. Also, it seems like Hyde is very good
looking, but what about his character? Both Asuka and Hyde are very headstrong
and stubborn, and while Asuka is supposed to be a westerner, Hyde looks
like a westerner! |
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| Beginning
(e) - Let's see... Although several of them knew each other beforehand,
L'Arc~en~Ciel was formed around Hyde and Tetsu! As for why Hyde left his
previous band-- Tetsu'd called him almost everyday to plaque him--
Hyde'd had no intention to join at first. |
| That
sounds alot like wooing somebody, doesn't it? Hmm. So, what else could
be the real reason Hyde left his previous band? (hint: h <3 t!) |
| Barbed
Wire Necklace
(n) - In Hyde's painting for the single Shallow Sleep,
the motif of the barbed wire acts as a complimenting background to the
lily. Also, since 1998, Hyde has been wearing the barbed wire till 1999. |
| In
1996, Tetsu has compared Hyde to being a rose- the barbed wire acts as
a metaphor for the rose's thorns. Relating the idea of thorns to the song
"Ibara no namida" (see i) , this shows that Hyde treasures
Tetsu's comparison of him to the rose more than Sakura's "Cherry Blossom"!
^0^ (Hyde has never written a song "sakura", has he?) |
| Bible
(n)- in Tetsu's High School yearbook, Tetsu wrote that the book which he
read most was the bible, to assist in his writing lyrics. In the same way,
Hyde's lyrics are full of religious tones of Biblical (to be more mainstream)
veins as well. |
| No
HT references here, but practitioners of Christianity often condemn homosexuality,
due to the "purpose" stated in the text. This might point to Hyde's lyrics
and the forbidden love. |
| Bird
/ birdcage (n) - a recurring imagery in Hyde's works, including
Siesta~ Field of Dreams, Blurry Eyes and Flower. |
| also
see "Ibara no namida" (I) |
| Butterfly/
Butterfly's Sleep (n) - Appears in songs like "Butterfly's Sleep".
Another recurring imagery in L'Arc~en~Ciel's works- in Shinshoku, Butterflies
escape from Hyde's mouth. Butterfly is an insect of Hagiel, the angel of
Venus, the ruler of Libra. |
| also
see "horoscope" (h) and "anemone" (a) |
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| Car
(e) - 2002, when Hyde was at a hot spring. Hyde saw tetsu's car, and thus
waited all night for tetsu... |
| Logically
speaking, who the hell would wait for so long unless a) tetsu owes hyde
money, or b) hyde loves tetsu and dearly misses him? ^_^ (of course, let's
be more romantic!) |
| Cop
& Gangster (e) - In 1999, an interview asked: "what would you
rather be if you weren't a musician?" Hyde's answer: "Cop, because I get
to chase people" and Tetchan's answer: "Gangster, because they're cool". |
| When
hyde and tetsu drop so much hints for us... Tetchan's original dream was
to be a storeowner, right? Since when did he want to become a gangster?
And Hyde wants to chase people- it's an indirect proof of him being intellectually
a domineering guy (seme!), whereas, for Tetsu, he'd be the one being chased,
so he's the uke! Tada! |
Child
(n)
- In the event when they went to Taiwan, when they were interviewd by the
reporter, the conversation goes like this:
Reporter:
Have you known each other for a long time?
Hyde:
Yeah, it won't be surprising even if we had a kid!
Reporter:
Has it been nine years?
Hyde:
If we had a kid it's probably graduated! |
| I
think this speaks for itself. XD But coupled with the fact that Tetchan
once sat on Hyde, and that Hyde cuddled and kissed Tetchan on the lips
in 95, it must be HxT and not TxH. Also see the baby name. |
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| Dove
(n) - the bird in Hyde's photostory of Siesta~ Field of Dreams. In this
video, this Dove is Hyde's lover. As a symbol for Peace (UN), and harmony,
the Dove is also a bird from Hagiel (The angel of Venus, who rules Libra),
which appeared in the bible to fetch a twig to convey the news of relief
to Noah's Ark. |
| This
was the beginning, so we must not forget that they might be still together
at that time. It is also known that people born on 3 Oct are harmonious
people- the bird is a perfect representation of Tetsu. And because it is
white, see Lily (L). |
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| Evergreen
(n)
- This is Hyde's first solo single release; in it, he sings, "so full of
joy you were a child of spring/a beauty that is pure/an innocence endures" |
| The
entire song points to a failed relationship that has been destroyed due
to a breach of rules within it.
As
for why Tetsu...?! Since all the evidence points towards the fact that
Hyde and Tetsu were once together and that they, by 1999, have already
broken up with Tetsu being the hurt one, this song gives us a clue to the
nature of the uke. Since it is written, "so full of joy"... "an innocence
endures", this song is written for Tetsu because Tetsu is like, as he has
said in 1999, a child; he claims his mental age is 16, and the aforementioned
attributes are that of a child's.
However,
at the end of the song, Hyde sings, "The time has come the bells have rung/...last
goodbye", it points to the fact that it cannot be written for his current
wife, Megumi since they are now married; in fact, "the time has come" signifies
that it is the time for marriage, and since marriage (with opposite sex
to appease both outsiders and parents) is often the painful spot of gay
couples, it gives us a clue to the reason of their breakup.
Also,
a possibility is Hyde's reference to request for going solo-- it might
imply emotional dissatisfaction with the band (and or the band members,
namely, a break from having to see Tetsu, someone whom he once hurt), and
the song is written to comfort Tetsu.
This
also explains why Hyde uses the image of a lily (l) and
a rose (r) often. |
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| Flower
(e) - In 1996, L'Arc~en~Ciel's members were all labeled with a flower...
When Ken said, Tetsu's like tulip, "the species that lies between black
and purple, right? Alluring tulip." And hyde replied, "Yeah, tulip." Later,
with regards to Hyde, whereas Tetsu said, "Rose", Sakura said, "I think
it's cherry blossoms. Isn't it said that corpses are buried underneath
cherry blossoms?" |
| As
you can see, the ROSE has become a motif in Hyde's worlds- in terms of
lyrical expression, and in photographs. Although Sakura seems to understand
Hyde in that respect, it bears no significance in terms of relationship-
admittedly, "sakura" is referring to his own name as well, but it might
merely be a reference of close friendship. (BTW, hidoko loves freesias)
in
Tetsu's "Rose", and Hyde's commentary on Tetsu being a "tulip", however,
suggests an unnatural relationship that might be worth the creation of
the song "ibara no namida" (see i) It generally means
that Hyde thinks Tetsu is alluring (like Ken), which is why he agreed with
Ken.
Moreover,
Sakura might have done that comparison because there are corpses under
a cherry blossom. Corpses can be seen as the sacrificed, the killed, the
hurt, and because hyde is a rose (to tetsu), tetsu could be hurt by the
thorns.This implies that Sakura is a close friend who knows of tetsu and
hyde's condition, and because of the comparison, tetsu is the hurt one,
which fits the image of ibara no namida perfectly. |
| Finale
(n) - The sing seems to suggest heavy connotations of being directed towards
androgynous identity, especially with the last phrase, "kimi wa...shoujo
no mama" |
| "furimuita
kimi wa toki o koete mitsumeteiru/adokenai shoujo no mama" The phrase "toki
o koete...shoujo no mama" suggests the transitional between the present
and the past, hinting that either a) this individual was never a
young girl but now seems like one with relations to the past, or
b) this individual was once like a young girl. (referring to tetsu...
Given that he was never a young girl, but once seemed like a young girl,
and with those sorrowful eyes could seem any moment like what he was once
like.)
"kono
ai wa daremo furesasenai/sore ga kami ni somuku koto dearou to" Again,
the motif of forbidden love crops up- forbidden love is often associated
with homosexuality. "daremo furesasenai" suggests that it is due to societal
perspective that the love is forbidden. The religious connotation of "kami
ni somuku koto dearou" suggests that it might be due to religion that causes
the conflict between the love and perspective- yet even if he has go against
God, he would not let anyone touch this love.
Given
the two premises, one could safely deduct that he is referring to Tetsu,
because Tetsu was once like a girl and never was a girl. The
first phrase, "shoujo no mama" suggests that Hyde is the seme in the relationship.
"toki wo koete" suggests that the relationship is a thing of the past...
Also
see: Butterfly's Sleep (B) |
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Genius
(n) - In a 95 interview, Hyde introduced himself as, "I am a genius, with
a lot of talents."
Tetchan
replied, "I admit that."
Hyde
replied, "Including ecchi (sex)?" |
| I can just imagine tetsu
blushing like a shoujo in this one! XD |
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| horoscope
(n) - The horoscope for Hyde and Tetsu's birthdays are-- favourable union,
but a destructive relationship. |
| Combined
with the premise of anemone (see a), the end result is-
hyde and tetsu are, or at least, were together! The fact that "anemone"
has many attributes pointing to a failed relationship,... |
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| ibara
no namida (Thorn's Tears, n) - A L'Arc~en~Ciel song from the Album
Ray. Words an Music by Hyde. (The motif of thorn and rose, with indirect
reference to a bird) |
| ten
ga maiorite itazura ni tanoshimu no ka? -> the appearance of the "wicked
prank" by heaven is one example of disruptive love... As is common in many
hyde songs. The cynicism and bitterness apparent in this phrase tells us
why that such a love has indeed been destructive.
koe
wo hariagete -> refers to the legend where the bird pierces his heart to
the thorn and sings the final beautiful song
ibara
ni mamireta kono chi ga karehate temo -> Note the imagery of smearing of
blood on the thorn. The next phrase, "anata e kokoro wo daite" tells us
that the narrative voice is a thorn, or possibly a rose. Also, the blood,
combined with the voice, points to an imagery of a bird... And tetsu is
so like a bird, especially with his soprano backing...
anata
e no kokoro wo daite -> note the usage of "anata"- it's more ambivalent
to the gender of the person he's referring to. The reference to embracing
the heart possibly, other than for poetic purposes, refers to the legend
of the bird again, where the heart is pierced through- the song, as a thorn,
embraces the bird.
sono
toki wa anata ga tsurete itte -> Note the usage of "bring (a person along)"...
Cross reference with "TIGHTROPE", by Tetsu, wherein it says "kimi o tsuresatemo
ii no?" However, the song stipulates, "kegarete nakatta nara"... Which
in the general atmosphere of the song probably refers to the time of death.
"soshite sotto daite" is ambivalent in the gender of the subject, and "sotto"
gives a feeling of the souls gently embracing--souls do not have gender,
therefore, the love would then be pure. Unlike Tetsu's song, however, this
seems confident of his subject's requited love-- thereby suggesting that
Tetsu is the hurt one.
Also
see, barbed wire necklace (B)... |
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| Kiss
(n) - In a live from 95, after singing Blurry Eyes, Hyde made a mistake.
Ken laughed rather impolitely, so Tetchan walked over to reprimand him,
but was accidentally hit by Hyde's outstretched hand. So Hyde hurriedly
cuddled Tetchan and kissed him on the lips!
Also,
Tetsu's way to destress before live is to kiss Hyde (He said this in shoxx
of 94 Jan). He said (exactly), "Recently I keep recieving letters from
fans saying things like, "Don't kiss Hyde anymore" or "Don't leave kissmarks
on Hyde!". But it's because Hyde asked me to, "Let's leave a kissmark"
in the resting room, which is why I did it, that lots of misunderstandings
occur, I'm the one who's being forced! (laughs) Because of this, Hyde's
fans, who know nothing, write threat mail to me, but it's all just a misunderstanding;
I didn't want to do it myself, but Hyde keeps requesting, I don't want
to do it myself, but he's requesting, so I feel troubled, what great stress...
But after saying this, the stress has gone away... (laughs)" |
| This
is the strongest evidence that I've found so far! The act of Hyde's towards
Tetsu's is so seme-ish, and Tetsu is indeed a libra who will give in to
his lover just to get harmony... |
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| Lily
(n) - A flower for purity- this flower was featured on Hyde's Shallow Sleep
and appeared in a photobook LIFE in one Tetsu picture. Lilies are flowers
of Hagiel, the angel of Libra, and also signify purity. |
| The
motif of the thorn (barbed wire necklace) in the background hints at a)
the occasion in 1996 where Tetsu compared Hyde to a rose, and b) Hyde's
response to being compared to a rose (for more information, see F, for
Flower!) This means that Hyde treasures Tetsu's comparison of himself to
a rose!
Also,
since white lilies signify purity, the song "evergreen" is also written
for Tetsu (see "E") |
| Looks
(n) - Both Hyde and Tetsu consider looks to be the top priority for liking
girls. |
| Since
both of them look out for looks first, and both of them look good... Also
see "Asuka" |
| LIVE
(n) In a Nagoya live of 95, Tetchan sat on top of Hyde and played his bass. |
| Apparently,
there's a __xual position that's similar to that action... It involves
the guy on the bottom who takes the role of a seme, and the guy who's sitting
on top is the uke. |
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| Melancholy
(n) Hyde has said that what troubles him most in roundabout tours is Tetchan's
melancholy! |
| There
are other things to be troubled about, like a "girlfriend", or family.
So why Tetchan's melancholy, specifically? It indicates a tragic downturn
in the love affair of HxT, or that they are best friends. But coupled with
the fact that Hyde's a Romantic, which renders him one of those people
who, once they have love, do not care as much about friends, and also the
fact that there are so many evidences pointing towards Hyde and Tetsu,
it implies that they at least were once together. |
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| Name
(n) - Tetchan once said that if he's going to have a boy, he'd call it
"hide --". And Hyde's name happens to be "hideto"... |
| He
also said that his name for girls would be "nijiko", which is "pretty child
of rainbow". (Damn, I also had the same thought before I knew that Tetchan
will name his daughter that... But for me, the guy would be called "hikazu"^^) |
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| ring
(n) -The ring with five pointed star is introduced by Tetchan to Hyde from
a magazine on which he saw. |
| This
is a ring that Hyde never takes off. Apparently, Tetchan knows Hyde's taste
well, and Hyde treasures the ring so much. Also, even though Roentgen has
that knot around his finger which implies he's married, it also could mean
the ring that Tetchan showed him that he really treasured. |
| rose
(n) - We know that Tetchan has compared Hyde to a rose in 96. And we do
know that roses have thorns, which is almost equivalent to the thorn on
his neck and the thorn he wears on his wrist on Heart, as well as the thorn
he wears in Hello. |
| Also see Ibara
no Namida and Lily. |
| red
(n) - We know that hyde's mildly colour blind, and that Tetchan always
dresses in bright colours. In LArc-en-ciel.com, the colour assigned to
Tetchan is red,and to Hyde is blue. |
| Hyde's being mild colour
blind refers to the fact that he can't see a few colours, but he can see
bright colours. He also wrote "a drop of colour", which reflects Tetsu's
colourful hair and dressing. Also, we know that Tetsu's very much in favour
of colours, considering that he named his band "rainbow". As we can see
above,
Hyde has the tendency to compare tetsu to flowers, which are colourful
things of nature. Being the Romantic that he is, Hyde expresses himself
very much through nature, so it is implying that Hyde loves Tetsu! |
| rainbow
(n) - This is the name of the band, which is also the colour of gay flag. |
| In his high school photo,
Tetsu has already begun cross dressing and wearing makeup. He also kept
long hair despite school objection. When compared with this fact, one really
wonders about his sexual orientation. |
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| Secret
Signs (n) - Although there is never a direct reference, it is good
proof of Hyde being a seme. |
| "okasareta
karada/shitasaki de yasashiku/tokasete hoshii oboreru made" The stanza's
reference to "okasareta", while meaning "violated", sounds like "penetrated"
as well. The protagonist refers to the usage of "tokasete hoshii...", referring
to the body, giving the impression that he is referring to the body beneath
him that is violated.
Although
the first few lines do not bear the answer to the subject's gender, "kowareochita
ishiki wa nido to/moto ni modosenai" gives the feeling of forbidden love
and sin is again portrayed. As heterosexuality is easily immunised
to (let's just say with Japan's number of A videos, it wouldn't be impossible),
whereas homosexuality isn't, thereby heightening the "forbidden" sense
(even the existence of love between homosexuals are more or less
seen in that way by a conservative asian society, much less sexual
acts between homosexuals). Again, this indirectly refers to the possibility
of homosexuality.
...And
at this time, Tetsu's really skinny... With long red hair... ^.^ Wearing
pink jacket... very uke-ish... |
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| TETSUKO
(n) - The "girl" who appeared in TETSU69's November Suite booklet, but
is a cross-dressing TETSU69. |
| she
is very pretty, isn't she? Anyway, tetsu has been known to crossdress (other
than the earlier days) from time to time, even after they deny being "visual".
This shows that tetsu has certain tendency towards being a "girl". Only
TETSUKO know TETSU69's secrets because TETSU69's secrets are probably as
TETSUKO. (ie: xxxing as an uke with hyde...)
Just
a random thought, back in 2000 I wrote a fanfiction about tetsu crossdressing
and saying he has a sis called tetsuko. ^_^; what a coincidence. |
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